For the past 2 weeks ive been working with an acting coach and it has been nothing but good. I feel like after every lesson im more and more prepared to do what i need to do come the shoot date of may 29th. I think part of it is that i relate to the guy teaching me so well. The other part is just that he has excellent knowledge of how to become vulnerable to feel a situation of a character by relating it to a real life situation and using some key tricks on the side as well. It may sound confusing, which im sure it is to people unfamiliar with acting but he makes it clear. For example, there is a scene at the very beginning of the movie where sticky is in a vulnerable state and he shows a lot of pain in his facial expression while staring out into the ocean at the crack of dawn. He’s thinking about all of the foster families that said that they loved him and would take him in and treat him as their own son but then all end up letting him down and turning him away. In order to get that pain in my expression I really have to feel it. So as a parallel i had to use rejection in my life. I thought back to when i was a freshman in high school and i went to try out for an all-star team for Oregon who would travel to big time tournaments in Vegas and Cali. I ended up being cut because i was too short and too skinny. They literally told me that they were scared of my size. That was crazy too me because I killed in the tryouts but they just didn’t want to give me a chance. I absolutely dominated every guard on the court hitting deep threes, driving the lane and hitting floaters, and even ripping the guards for layups. But at the end of the day when they told me i couldn’t be on the team due to them saying i was too small, that right there killed me and i felt extreme rejection. Even some of my friends were on the team who i played with all the time. So for a parallel to sticky’s rejection it works great even though it’s not as extreme.

We’ve been doing each session scene by scene in order so far. We are only on the fourth scene of the movie and i feel confident that i can do this. Sticky is an interesting character but ive been picking him apart so much lately that it really is starting to become clear to me exactly who he is and its easier for me to become him.

This weekend i have a game in St Cloud Minnesota, somwhere in Arkansas, and in Corpus Christi, Texas. I’ll have an update when i get back. easy.